15.9.08

Subtle opportunities

After some time thinking about how to start, it finally comes out (during an online chat):

Her: I just wanna say I'm really into you. I've been feeling this for quite a while now, but I was never able to let you know in an adequate manner or moment.
Him: What?
Her: Yes, I'm being as clear as can be: I'm into you.
Him: This is awkward.
Her: Yes, I figured it would be, but it was eating my insides and I felt I had to let you know. I'm aware this might change everything between us, but I hope it doesn't.
Him: Hey, look, you're a very good friend before anything else. Someone I trust and value. This doesn't change a thing.
...
Him: Why didn't you say this before?
Her: I tried, but I guess I was too subtle. To be honest, I guess I was afraid of a NO and that revealing this would ruin our friendship.
Him: Of course it wouldn't! We're not children anymore!
...
Him: You know, that day we went out with the guys, I thought you looked hot.
[she felt the same way]
Her: WHAT???
[much desperation and flashes from that day quickly racing through her mind]
...
Her: Why didn't you say anything??
Him: I was afraid it would sound impolite and disrespectful.

He's found someone else now.

She's still recovering, trying to understand why she kept it inside for so long?, how was she too subtle?, why didn't she trust her instincts and have more confidence in herself?, why must these opportunities slip away like sand?, and could it be true after all that, some things, just aren't supposed to happen?

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Pessoalmente, eu acho que essa coisa de "it was not meant to be" é besteira. When you attribute events to a higher order instead of taking responsibility for things, you don't even get the only good thing about screwing up, that is, learning from your mistakes.

I don't know who you're talking about, but please learn the lesson that we all have to learn at some point. It's much easier to get over making a fool of yourself and letting a friend know that you fancy them than it is to get over the crappiness of losing a potentially good relationship.

And learn the next thing... there's plenty of other guys out there, you just have to remember to not do the same mistake again... ;)

Cwolff said...

I agree that "anonymous" (c?) might be right, although I cannot get myself to make a fool of myself telling someone I fancy them. I'm not good at saying things when I don't have a clue about the response. I normally don't say it. I let things happen (or not happen) and that's it.

Technically I would have done one of the following:
a) never telling him;
b) finally deciding to say it, but too late, like yourself.

Which means I would, too, have an unhappy ending. Meant to be, or not meant to be.

There you go, two points of view. But try the anonymous way next time, I think it's more like you.

Horas Vagas said...

Bem sei que conversa é essa....rs